Ukemi, Please
by Clarence E. Davis
I started my aikido training at ACV last July. I was excited to finally be
training once again in a martial art. Four years of intense training followed by a
five-year hiatus had left me with a void that conventional exercise could not fill.
Yearning to get back on the mat, I called ACV and spoke with Sensei who encouraged
me to come in and speak with him and perhaps watch a class. I went in and spoke
with Sensei and immediately felt at home. We talked for almost an hour, and at the
end of that time I knew that this was where I wanted to train.
I had erroneously believed that I could pick up where I had left off in my
earlier training. It would be like riding a bike I told myself, after a few classes
I would be back "in the groove." I could not have been more incorrect.
The first class that I took started out easy enough, stretching and a warm-up.
Sensei then clapped his hands and said, "Ukemi, please." I
immediately launched into a diving roll and a few break-falls (pretty good I thought
after not having done this for a while). Sensei approached me and said, "Those
were very good, but we don't usually do break-falls in our dojo." Ok, I
wondered, how do I get down to the mat? I did not have to wait long for an answer to
my question. Sensei very gracefully showed several forward rolls, and sprung to his
feet "Ok, you try." Surprise... I tried it and failed miserably, this was
not going to be easy. After several weeks of fighting with my ego and my
stubbornness, I made the conscious decision to let go completely of everything I had
previously learned and open my mind. I had once again found shoshin
(beginner's mind). At that point things became a little easier. I no longer left the
dojo angry and frustrated with myself, I started to relax and really enjoy
practice.
Well, it has been seven months since I started studying aikido. In that time I
have settled into the rhythm of the dojo and my various training partners. I
would like to thank my sempai (senior students) for working with me outside
of class. Although far from being graceful, I no longer feel like I have two left
feet and no longer fear the words "Ukemi, please."
See you on the mat.
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