Some Notes on Terry Dobson's Teaching
by Ed Pincus
Terry Dobson had been an uchi deshi and student of O Sensei in
Japan for ten years before returning to the US. After teaching on the West Coast,
and having been diagnosed with a serious illness, he returned to Grand Isle,
Vermont, where his family had a summer residence, to die. He lived a lot longer
than expected and during this time he would do occasional teaching in Burlington at
Vermont Aikido.
Two pieces follow (with a few updates). I wrote them in the fall
of 1992, soon after Terry Dobson died. I plan to write more about Terry in future
issues. Ed Pincus
I thought it would be a piece of cake to write about Terry. It hasn't been.
I lost a friend.
The Tuesday night before he left for the West Coast [he died in San Francisco
after teaching a class], Hugh [Hugh Young, formerly an instructor at Vermont Aikido]
couldn't teach and Terry filled in. It was a great class and I was riding high.
Terry was exuberant. He talked about doing a regular class again. I thought, I'm
not interested in waza (technique) any more -- I just want to learn what
Terry has to teach.
Years before I asked a student why she wasn't going to Terry's Tuesday night
class anymore. She said: he always teaches the same thing. I said: I know, but I
haven't gotten it yet. Well, for the first time there was a glimmer. Maybe I
was getting it.
What was it Terry had to teach? Takemusu aiki. What is that? Every
teacher seems to give a different answer -- ranging from love, to the budo of
protection, to something like "knot in an oak tree." People often train
in aikido to learn power, grace and harmony. This was something Terry loved to see
but never quite taught. He admired Hugh's strength and grace. So much so that many
years ago when he resumed doing West Coast seminars after stopping practicing aikido
for several years, he asked Hugh to come with him.
Now it was staring me in the face. About a year before, he had been worried
about kicking and how rarely we practiced defense against kicks. He stood up in
front of class and said that the night before O Sensei talked to him in a dream.
He pointed to O Sensei's photograph on the kamiza. He said he thought it was
literally O Sensei talking to him in the dream though we could make of it what we
wanted. He asked O Sensei about kicking and he was told "non-resistance --
that's
all you have to know." Terry would tell of the time he asked O Sensei about
the
circle, square and triangle in the practice of aikido. O Sensei studied him for a
while and finally told him he should find out for himself. Terry would comment
wryly, "Ten years of study with O Sensei and I only asked him one question -
and
that was his answer."
I was beginning to find a teacher of the do (the way) in aikido. So I
lost a teacher too.
Terry's "technique" was to harmonize so as to disrupt. Traditional
aikido involves harmonious movement that allows the uke to fall gracefully.
Yin and yang, throughout the movement. Not so with Terry - drooling,
picking your nose, stepping on uke's foot, grabbing the balls (if present),
grabbing a ponytail, flicking the hakama, jumping down, uttering "your
mother!" were all part of aikido if they worked. Movement could be stopped and
disrupted. It didn't always look beautiful.
Whenever Terry saw the beautiful aikido movements and sensed nage's
pride, he as teacher would disrupt. "Now do that move as though you're in a
bar and can't do any foot work."
Terry was teaching that takemusu aiki -- the "aiki of
protection" -- was not the tremendous feeling of power and euphoria that comes
from good waza, but was a blending that caught another's energy and treated
it with love, caring and protection.
MORE NOTES ON TERRY'S TEACHING
Terry demonstrates katatori nikkyo with no foot movement, no ki
extension in the hands. Limp hands and the nikkyo bow. Uke is on the
ground. Terry stands over. It's over fast as lightning. Terry to the uke:
"Are you OK? Something the matter?"
He looks at the class. "Doing a martial art technique in a bar is an
invitation to fight. Here it's all over. No one saw anything. No one at the bar
wants to see it again, since there was nothing to see. I know. I know. We all
want to look good. But looking good is not the point."
Practicing with Terry you await his attack with hands extended in a traditional
martial stance. Terry: "Cut out that martial shit."
Terry felt that aikido tapped into the biology of human kind -- we were animals
for a long time before being civilized. Softness of touch gives the attacker
nothing to fight. It is as though uke is in his/her mother's arms. Stand
behind uke, hands on his/her shoulders. Uke is brought down by gently
resting the hands without ki and guiding them down to the mat.
Terry's lunch/punch exercise: Uke approaches nage either planning
to punch or hand over an (imaginary) lunch bag. Nage has to decide whether
the approach is friendly or hostile. Terry would say it is what we knew as animals.
We have to regain that instinct.
Everything mattered. You had to be aware of each detail. It mattered how you
entered the dojo, stepped on the mat, bowed. You never were wrong to bow:
One icy evening Terry was running by a movie theater and skidded on his knees into a
woman. He looked up to see here big boyfriend looming over him. He did a formal
bow and said he was so sorry. The boyfriend was embarrassed and said, "It's
fine, man. Get up."
I went through a practice run of my shodan [first level black belt]
test. I asked him if I should start off by bowing. He said, "Sure." We
spent the next fifteen minutes going over my bow. I felt annoyed, wanting to get
onto techniques. During my test, before randori (multiple attacks), all I
thought about was bowing properly. During randori I was totally relaxed.
All worry was gone.
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